LIVING ON BREAD & CIRCUS

I feel like a master, living like a slave

I'm just an angry lizard looking for some shade

Snakes on my ladder coveting the grass

monkey on the top rung won't last.

Raw dog, that’s life... it’s a beautiful world

raw dog, beautiful loser, it's a glamorous world.

While the fountain of youth spits forth saline

I'm crammed in the corner like a dry sardine

my foot never fit into that tiny glass shoe

but no Cinderella can do what I can.

Raw dog, that’s life... it’s a beautiful world

raw dog, ugly girl... it’s a glamorous world.

But I feel like the mythical rose of troy

I feel like the solid hum of joy

I feel like the fire singing in the trees

feel this blue blood under my chemise

Feel like a master, living like a slave

Just an angry lizard looking for some...

Raw dog, beautiful loser, it’s a glamorous world.

Her beauty is red maddening the bull

so drunk on her color you can hardly stand the pull

'til the harsh light of truth comes crashing in

and you spy that birthmark on her skin

wipe the egg up off the floor

your dreams reduced to a mangy little...

Raw dog, that’s life…it’s a beautiful world

Raw dog, beautiful loser…it’s a glamorous world

Raw dog, ugly girl…it’s a glamorous,

Raw dog, that’s life…it’s a beautiful world

When life is like a grainy photograph of mars

when dreams are stuck like shinny gems in a gridlock of stars

when the fog that rolls in sets up house inside your brain

when your heart’s gone camping too far out in the rain

Summer always comes

summer always comes

summer will find you again

When your world is stuck like re-runs on a black and white TV

when talk show hosts at midnight are intimate company

when love is just a puddle splashing at your feet

with its' hopeful hallelujahs thrown out on the street

Summer always comes

even if she's what you've been hiding from

summer will find you again

through a winter blinding plight there always comes a light

if you don't give up

through heart breaking strain there's a flip side to pain

if you don't give up

When the future's like a voodoo doll dressed up like Charlie Manson

and the past is like a boomerang striking back without compassion

when faith is like a trial cross examining your soul

and you feel just like a puppet who's never been in control

Summer will find you again

summer always comes

she doesn't care what you've been hiding from

summer always comes again.

You’ve been worried about the weather and worried about your life

you burnt all the blue magazines you’ve kept hidden from your wife

the chains that you wear to sleep in are more than you can bare

since you lost sight of the reasons that ever held you there.

Dear Jane,

“I can’t learn to swim when I’m already drowning

and it’s been raining for years

no I can’t learn to fly when I’m already falling

and the sky never seems to clear.

So you packed your bags and your sorrow, all the memories have been tossed

you changed your name back to high school to recapture the youth that’s lost

you left a note in a shoe box behind the shirt tails and sleeves

one day she’ll find it dried with the mothballs and leaves.

Dear Jane,

“I can’t learn to swim when I’m already drowning

and it’s been raining for years

no I can’t learn to fly when I’m already falling

and the sky never seems to clear

so I’m looking for a way out of here.”

Now you’ve gone to find a girl with a little less history

you’ve exchanged the old you for a brand new plan

all the rules that you used to swear by are as meaningless as dust

the hand that you keep in your pocket is the only thing you trust.

Dear Jane...

Like a shadow in the limelight just about to crack

like a circus monkey who suddenly attacks

for a nickel and a peanut or a strong pelt of beer

like a freak in a sideshow how the hell did I get here?

Living on bread and circus as the ponies go round & round

I'm just an angry monster painted up like a clown.

Heroes are invincible, heroines are thin

he worships the gods of silicon, she a little bottle of fen-phen

my face is still hiding beneath the kiss of a thousand screams

I need a stronger cup of coffee to wake me from this dream.

Living on bread and circus as the ponies go round and round

I'm just an angry monster painted up like a clown.

On the top of the pop you made millions with your super sonic bubble gum

now the paparazzi's in your bedroom rifling through the hum drum

but stranger than the photographs, queerer than the queer

is I'm caught looking in you window what the hell am I doing here?

Living on bread and circus

wallowing in the mire

straddling a tightrope, swallowing the fire

living on bread and circus

watch ‘em twist and turn

It’s somehow exciting filming while they burn

living on bread and circus

as the ponies go round and round

I’m just an angry woman painted up like a clown.

We've got a nice house with a piece of the rock

we've got privileges,

we've got a trip planned out for the summer.

How do we gauge our wealth?

why do I feel so squeezed?

if every thing's O.K. why do you feel so ill at ease?

We are ecstatically miserable

we are dying to connect

we are infinitely inseparable

we are one.

We’ve got everything under lock and key,

we’ve got principles

we’ve got someone to walk the dog, raise our kids and pull the weeds.

How do we value time?

why do you feel so squeezed?

if every thing's O.K. why do I feel so ill at ease?

We are ecstatically miserable

we are dying to connect

we are infinitely inseparable

we are one.

If everything we say is covertly spoken

then every word we mend is already broken

and we are miles a way

if everything we do is for a case of grandeur

humility aside, how will the heart endure?

miles away, so many miles...

We are ecstatically miserable

we are dying to connect

we are infinitely inseparable

we are

infinitely inseparable, infinitely inseparable...

He never measures up to the glamour and glitz

small town boy with sweaty pits

like a yo-yo swinging on a string

in a world where life doesn't mean anything.

No one suspected

over the blaring television set

no one suspected

his needs were never met.

He’s hiding in the bush at the promenade mall

as the shots ring out and his class mates fall

he runs to the counter to order Sloppy Joes

and spits at the waiter with the ethnic nose.

No one suspected

the youngest family cadet

no one suspected

he'd kill his own pet.

When the police came he ran in the front door

purring like a lion who forgot to roar

the family was shocked when he cocked his mane

saying somehow no one ever saw the depth of his pain.

No one suspected, no one suspected, no one suspected

Over the blaring television set

No one suspected

his needs were never met

he'd kill his own pet

No one suspected

he was that upset.

Take your first step, take the risk, take the fall.

take your first drink,take a sip,take it all.

Quench the howling chaos that stirs within the heart

overcome the differences keeping us apart...

Come to me,

will you wander this desert of mine?

come to me,

I’ve got bread and I've got wine,

come to me,

I’ll come to you,

crossing over, crossing over.

Take your first stroke,take the waves and the rocky shore.

break my thunder clouds, breath them in, let them pour.

Soothe the screaming midnight moon, cruelest ruler of the heart,

bridge the gap of differences keeping us apart.

Come to me,

you who have traveled so far,

though we're lovers,

I scarcely know who you are,

come to me,

I’ll come to you,

crossing over,crossing over.

will you wander this desert of mine?

I’ve got bread and I've got wine,

come to me,

I’ll come to you,

crossing over,crossing over.

She's got a 10 foot neon Jesus.

she can communicate with her dead dog.

she’s got enough dreams to fill heaven,

but she can show you what it's like in hell.

She comes from an ordinary family.

She’s got a black dove for a sister.

she’s got a killer for a brother.

they say she never really knew her father,

and you know they say it's just as well.

She comes from an ordinary family.

Now she’s got diets and addictions

she’s been packing guns inside her Flintstone lunch box

she’s been saved by the garbage man

on her holy trash she stands.

She comes from the system,

she comes from the street,

she comes from the ordinary places,

she comes from the darkness to resurrect the light,

she cuts like a dagger through the quiet of our night,

she speaks to us all through the shadows of this land,

in the spirit of mans' inhumanity to himself.

She comes from the country,

she comes from the church,

she comes from all the right places,

she comes from the ghetto,

she comes from the cracks.

She comes from an ordinary family.

Do you think it's really real?

This love I dare to feel,

I'm surrendering without doubt

It's as real as the breath

that comes in and goes out.

Do you think the timing strange?

I can't stop my heart has changed

I’m surrendering without doubt

It's as real as the breath

that comes in and goes out.

I’m shaking like a leaf as the winds begin to whirl

Catch me with your breathing, let me slowly unfurl

Thunderclouds are breaking in waves across you lips

How long must I wait to taste just a sip?

Yes, I'm juggling which way to go

impatiently waiting this much I know

I’m surrendering without doubt

It's as real as the breath

That comes in and goes out.

All songs written, performed and produced by Cara Tower. Used by permission only by FuryBuddhaMusic/BMI

It’s been raining since half past five

The light is growing dim but my men are still alive,

The storm clouds are circling like vultures round our graves

Flirting with our freedom like bells on broken slaves.

We’ve come so far through the mud and sleet

I won’t hang my head down in defeat.

If we fall before dawn

If the river is too wide and too strong

If we fall before dawn

Freedom won't be long.

I ride my men to battle still a child beneath this steel

Daughter of the homeland who's been cursed with a gift to heal.

Oh my love, where did you go?

Down in the trench where dead winds blow.

If we fall before dawn

If the river is too wide and too strong

If we fall before dawn

Freedom won't be long.

Should fire eat my body and the rain drink my soul

Remember it was just the kings' servant

The knights of England stole

Remember my love

Remember my love....

When church bells are ringing

By torch and stake all witches tame

I’ll lay down my virtue to kiss their bed of flame

If I die by fiery lake

I won't bend and I won't break

If I fall before dawn

If the river is too wide and too strong

If I die before dawn

Freedom won't be long.

Come whole hearted serenity,

Come as simplistic

As you are.

Come sincerity,

Come willingness

Come with the mask less face of your love.

Come vulnerability,

Come courageous one

Come as radiant

As you are.

Come to me now

Leave our past behind

Come my love, my love, my love

Come my love, my love, my love.

Come clarity

With your nakedness in sight

Come exactly

As you are.

Come humility

Ground me in your grace

Come with the mask less face of your love.

Come to me now

Leave our past behind

Come my love, my love, my love

Come my love, my love, my love.